A quick scroll through world news is something I often do before I shut my eyes and leave the world for a few hours every night – I’d like to know of any impending disaster which means I don’t have to work tomorrow.
This time, my hasty scrolling was brought to a halt by a topic close to my heart (not K-pop) and a headline which I had to investigate.
Dead K-pop Star ‘consumed by depression’.
K-pop? Aren’t those guys like gods in Korea? Hoards of girls, fame, money, looks, talent, the lot.
I had no idea who he was.
Suicide? Why the fuck did he commit suicide?
How the fuck have I not done it yet?
His final note declared:
“The depression that was slowly devouring me, at last, consumed me,”.
That line struck fear in me.
If he was consumed; he with everything in life; what of me? Why haven’t I been consumed?
I feel for the guy – I really do. It must have been an enormous pain to submerge him while having a life of riches and fame.
And I ask myself the question. What is it that we are looking for in life? Those of us who are unfulfilled, regardless of fame and fortune or a mediocre one-bedroom-apartment with empty beer cans.
I honestly don’t know.
A few more final words from the man described as a ‘Grounded person’.
“What else can I say more. Just tell me I’ve done well. That this is enough. That I’ve worked hard. Even if you can’t smile don’t fault me on my way.”
“Just tell me I’ve done well”.
News story here: http://www.bbc.com/news/world-asia-42407766